It's Been A Minute!!!
Heeeeyyyyy! How’s it been? Since I’ve started typing, I am realizing that it’s been too long since I have last shared with you what’s going on with Esscents of Flowers and I, separately and as a combined entity. I’m sure you know that because it’s been a long minute, mama has been hard at work trying to feed and nurture the business as it’s needs has evolved since my last email. So, let’s jump into it.
This time last year, I was questioning the future of Esscents of Flowers and wondering how I was supposed to move this business forward with no events booked. With the acquisition of a new loan early 2018 to purchase the truck and take the business mobile, I was challenged with finding income as the pop-up season was delayed due to the much needed rain. It was a rough period. What I didn’t realize at the time, a shift was happening and I was in a season of learning patience and endurance. I was experiencing a growing pains, one of the many phases of owning your own business. (Side note: If you know any entrepreneurs, check on them. See how they’re doing from time to time. Owning your own business is an emotional, physical and mental roller coaster. It’s a heck of a ride and I can see why people say, “Nope, not for me.”) As we got deeper into 2018, things started to turn around. Multiple weddings and other events were booked and we were rolling! It looked bleak for a moment and I started to have thoughts about what I would do if I let it all go. But, I came to the realization that that wasn't an option.
Late 2018, I contacted various venues listed in the East Bay that were known to operate as an event space. The goal was to introduce myself and inquire about vendor listing. If you aren’t aware, to be placed on an approved vendor list can be incredibly difficult. It’s similar to trying to find the right moment to get in with the “in-crowd” and making your calculated move at the right time. As I was emailing, calling and showing up to over 50 places, I received one response back. The response was from a local golf course and while initially it wasn't the response I wanted to hear, it was still a response. The coordinator let me know that while they weren’t looking for a florist at the moment, they will keep my information on hand. This particular venue only works with one person/business from each sector in the world of events and they already had a florist. I thanked the coordinator and didn't think anything of it. Early 2019, I received an email stating that the florist at this local golf course had relocated to another state and they were in need of a florist. Because I had shown interest, they wanted to go with me!!!! Me y’all!!!! This was another step for Esscents of Flowers. It was a beautiful moment. I actually stopped to celebrate this win! I stayed the course. What would have happened if I would have given up just a few months prior?
We are now entering into the thick of wedding season and I am still juggling working full-time, nurturing a blooming (no pun intended) floral business, all while trying to maintain being a present mother and wife. This is HARD. Like, really hard. This is also the flipped side of the coin, right. I prayed that my business would grow and here it is. Weddings and other events on just about every weekend and sometimes multiple in a weekend. Just a few weeks ago, I had 4 weddings in a week. I didn’t know how that week was going to look and I was getting exhausted and a little anxious just planning for it. Thankfully, I had some extra hands to help with not only production, but also assist me in maintaining my sanity. All went well and please believe, I peacefully crashed that night after watching Avengers: Endgame of course :)
Just to be clear, I don’t regret asking for more. I wanted this. It’s what I have been working towards over the past 5 years. I am also saying this with the awareness of , “...to much is given, much is required...” With that being said, I am now challenged in facing what could possibly be one of the biggest decisions I have ever had to make. Which do I choose and what does that decision look like for my family and I? Do I try and stick it out and maintain both or do I go full-time into the business? The one thing I do know is that this is a year of transition. With this feeling of being uncomfortable, I know a new season is approaching. The beautiful part of this uncomfortable season is I am surrounded by a community that’s extremely supportive. I have been given much needed and sound advice. I’ve also been given the space to display all the emotions I have been experiencing without judgement. All in all, I am thankful :) But….. decisions, decisions, decisions…. I’ll let you know where I land.
I’ve talked a bit about balance in the past and what I am learning is that the scale is constantly moving. One minute, all is well and the next I am feeling like I am completely out of whack. I am learning to not be so rigid. Life is fluid and sometimes the road to your destination isn’t what you believe it should be. It’s okay. While yes, sometimes you need to stick to your guns as it’s necessary for very critical situations. But, sometimes, you just need to say, “You know what, it’s okay. We’re just going to roll this way.” #SayNoToUnnecessaryStress
Okay, that’s it for right now. There’s always more to come as I go along on this journey and I am just happy to be able to share it with you! Until next time!!!
Love and peace,
Ariana Marbley, Esscents of Flowers